i just want to say that i've given up hope in every single person in band.
i have no idea who's thinking what
and i think there's no way i can ever find out.
i feel like a failure.
we've tried so hard to bridge the gap
i thought we were good to actually try to initiate the changes in band.
very obviously, it isnt working at all.

maybe what our directs did to us in some way was good.
we were bonded.
but what we have now, is nothing but a selfish band.
maybe not all, but at least a handful.
i do not know exactly who are the ones,
but i can tell by the happenings these days that there are people like that.